I’m currently fine with where I am.

So I have this fear of losing that stability. And that fear of losing stability comes from fear of rejection. Which in turn comes from fear of getting hurt. And that fear comes from uncertainty. And this goes on and on until it just becomes…

Fear of fear itself.

Knowing what I want. That is the key. But how do I know what I want? Half the time I don’t even know where I am. -_-;;

내가 원하는 것은 내 감정이 결정하는 것일까? 아니면 내가 원하는 것을 결정하는대로 감정이 따라와 주는 것일까?

후자라고 믿고있고 전자는 않좋다고 생각하는 나의 편견때문에 힘든건가?

…

기도가 부족하다…

Dear God…

I beg of you to give me a clear direction. I know sometimes that having a clear direction is not what you intend, but it’s so askldfj;asjiljefila;wje. You know?

So God, grant me with wisdom. Grant me with everything you got… ’cause… I’m sick of being alone.

Help me Lord, help me to cling to you… help me to dedicate my hours to you. In your arms and in your nest, I know there is no fear. For you are love and love drives out fear. Please be with me.

Thank you, always.

Your son, Timothy Kim
in your Son’s name