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Worst Thing

The worst thing about growing up was not being able to have the things you want and do the things you want to do. And these are some of the things that I was told. I might get hurt. It’s too expensive. Etc. There were always some kind of reason for it.

But there were always hope. The hope of growing older existed. Once I’m old enough I will be able to do the things that I want to do, and have the things that I want. I guess that’s what kept me going. And I guess that’s why I love buying video games and legos, and taking random road trips, even though I’m nearing 28 in Korean age. (Thanks Rachel for reminding me.)

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The worst thing about being an adult is that you cannot hope any more. If something is not obtainable, the reasons for those things are not coming from my parents, but coming from my own conviction. That conviction is what makes me miserable. The fact that I know for sure, or at least I have convinced myself, that I cannot win my own desire kills me.

I wanna be a kid again.

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what said,

December 11, 2007 @ 10:59 pm

is it that you want so bad?

Timothy Kim said,

December 12, 2007 @ 11:11 am

Like working at a high tech company like google.
After reading through their aptitude test, I felt amazingly dumb and hopeless… -_-;;

who said,

December 12, 2007 @ 10:51 pm

knows you will get a job there? who says you can’t? cheer up!

hope said,

December 13, 2007 @ 11:57 pm

you still can have hope! 소망을 가지고 하루하루 “열심히” 살다보면 하고싶은거 얻고싶은거 모두들 얻었음에 감사할 날이 올꺼야
항상 어린아이처럼 꿈을 잃지 말고 살아라.
항상 어린아이처럼 순수하게 작은것에 감사하고 기뻐하면서 감사하면서 살아.
작은것을 이루어 놓고 “우와~” 하며 박수치며 웃는 이안이에게 배우렴