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Hell

“Lonely as hell.”

That’s what I wrote on my twitter feed. And soon as I wrote it, I realized how scary that statement is.

Hell, as I know it, is not a horrible place because of its fire or brimstones that people talk about. Instead, it is horrible because hell represents Godlessness. It’s the final separation from God. The true loneliness.

Saying that I’m lonely as hell might be little bit on the side of blasphemy. But that’s how I feel right now.

I think my loneliness is coming from my romantic life… well, lack of romantic life. I keep telling myself that to overcome that loneliness, I need to find companionship with God. And I try. I do the praying, the QT and the whole sh’bang. Yet, I still feel lonely as hell. I spend 5 days a week at church, but, ironically, here I am, writing about Godlessness.

I know for a fact that loneliness is not a sin. Even Jesus cried, asking why God had forsaken him.

But the fact that Jesus can emphasize with me doesn’t help me. It doesn’t encourage me, but actually it does the opposite.

I don’t know where I’m going with this blog entry, therefore I will stop now and go back to feeling lonely as hell, literally.

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maybe said,

February 16, 2008 @ 8:20 pm

you’re not busy enough OR i’m not lonely enough hehe
i hope you find true happiness soon!

Timothy Kim said,

February 16, 2008 @ 8:26 pm

Oh trust me, I’m busy…
I don’t have time to read news these days.