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Might River

August 22, 2007 at 7:14 pm

Lord let your power
Let your passion
Let your glory
Fill this place

We invite your will be done
Right here on earth as it is in Heaven

- Might River By The Katinas

주여 주의 임재하심이 이곳 연구실에 임하옵소서.
주의 뜻이 이곳에서 이루어지게 하옵시며
저를 사용하셔서 주의 빛이 비추어지게 하옵소서
주여 제가 있는 이곳에 오늘 임하옵소서.

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오늘 아침 주의 임재하심을 주일에만 공식적인 예배가 있는곳에만 찾았던 내 자신을 발견했다. 물론 매일 매일 나의 삶 그 자체가 예배이여야 하는것을 머리로는 알았지만 진정 그것을 갈망하고 기도했던적은 적었던거 같다.

요즘 많이 어지럽다. 주위에서 시끄럽다. 그럴때 일수록 욥처럼 하나님만 구하기 원한다. 친구들이 뭐라고 떠들던…

Tags: music, prayer

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Dear Jesus

June 28, 2007 at 11:14 pm

Dear Jesus,

So, I’ve known you for some time now and I really appreciate all that you’ve done for me. Maybe appreciate is on the bit of weak side, but you know what I mean. But anyways…

You know that movie called “Jerry Maguire”? Of course you do, you are omniscient, for God’s sake! Well… in that movie you know how Tom told Renee that romantic line, “You complete me.”? Well… I’ve been teaching my sunday school kids that that is a lie and only You can complete us.

Trust me, I wholeheartedly believe that it’s true. But I gotta confess. I’m feeling awfully incomplete these days. I can’t see to figure out what it is. You have given me everything that I asked for, school, work, family, church, etc., yet I feel amazingly lonely.

I don’t think it’s one of those, I need a girlfriend loneliness neither. I don’t know what it is. These days, I’ve been doing lot of stuff by myself lately: like biking, watching movies, going out to eat at a decent restaurant, and more. Before, these things used to be so much fun for what they are whether I do it alone or with somebody. But not these days.

Ok, I’m rambling… -_-;; Maybe I’m going crazy, I don’t know. All I know is that I miss You… much.

I should sleep… I’ll talk to you again, soon…

Yours truly,
Timothy Kim

Tags: Jerry Maguire, loneliness, prayer, relationship

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First day of class

May 21, 2007 at 7:54 pm

It’s the first day of the summer classes, and I’m already burned out. I have no idea why, but I get tired extra easily and can’t seem to function like a normal human being. (Well… not that I have before, but that’s another blog entry. -_-;;;) Lot of work to do and lot of things to take care of, yet I can’t seem to find the energy to do it.

Burnout

Yesterday, I told myself I want to get up early around 7 and goto church to pray. From last saturday bible study, I realized how much I did not pray. Well… I did but it was more of a habitual thing. But instead I woke up around 8 stayed in bed for about an hour staring at the ceiling. Then I managed to get myself to sit in front of my computer and check the news for 2 hours. Finally, before heading out for school and work, I squeezed in 30 minutes of Guitar Hero.

What’s wrong with me?

Oh and my neck still doesn’t turn left. -_-;;

Tags: GWU, laziness, prayer

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Dear Lord,

May 18, 2007 at 12:41 pm

I miss You…

That is all for today.

아직도 생생하고 기억한다. 이 일들이 처음 시작된 날을. 대준이네 살때였다. 아마도 2005년 10월 쯤이였을꺼다. 내 방안에 혼자 앉아 내 자신에 대해 놀란 날.

그 이후 벌써 2년이 다되가고 있다. 하지만 변한것은 별로 없다. 그동한 마음을 굳게 먹어도 질때가 너무나도 많았다.

매일같이 내 자신에게 변명만 하고 살아온 지난 2년. 이 싸움은 언제 끝이 날까?

St. Agatha를 조금이나마도 이해 할 수 있을거 같다…

Tags: God, loneliness, prayer

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Oh Lord

May 5, 2007 at 7:47 pm

Oh Lord,
Death be upon me.
For I can take no more.
You’ve taken my vigor away,
Take my burdens as well.
My wishes are futile and
Thy will, I do not desire
Oh Lord,
Let death be upon me.

- s.m. Timothy Kim

Tags: death, God, poetry, prayer

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